Yet, somehow, it has been a most fantastic summer.
Since I have nothing to do, I wake up and watch the sunrise, then later at night, I get to watch the sunset. I was worried about not making enough money this summer for school in the fall, but people have literally come out of nowhere and offered babysitting jobs to me (seriously, two ladies who live down the street from me who I have never met before stopped me while I was walking my dog and asked for my number). I now babysit 4-5 times a week for different families.
I mentioned previously that I had gone to the beach with my youth group. While I was there, God did nothing but astound me daily. Many of the youth that were graduating from high school were the ones in middle school when I was in high school. I got to watch as the once obnoxious middle schoolers were now adults, worshipping God with a maturity that I don't even see in adults most of the time. Students, who have grown up into leaders, as some girls I mentored prayed for me and asked me every day how I was feeling. Out of the 200 students there, I got to watch as 40 of them accepted Christ and there's been a revival going on in my church for the past two weeks.
I had planned my summer with a "go, go, go" attitude. Before all this happened, I counted only 8 days of actual free days in my summer. While none of my previous plans were "sinful" or bad for me, they weren't what God planned for me. Blood clots were God's way of telling me to slow down and listen to Him.
A lot of worship songs talk about God's comfort and how He takes fear away. I think I finally understand them. There's still worry and pain, but there's also the peace that transcends the fear, like when I was little and a dream scared me and my mother would just hug me and tell me it was going to be okay.
Currently listening to: "Season" by Jenny & Tyler
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