"No, life cannot be understood flat on a page. It has to be lived; a person has to get out of his head, has to fall in love, has to memorize poems, has to jump off bridges into rivers, has to stand in an empty desert and whisper sonnets under his breath... We get one story, you and I, and one story alone. God has established the elements, the setting and the climax and resolution. It would be a crime not to venture out, wouldn't it?"

--Donald Miller

Goodbye 2009!

Thursday, December 31, 2009

A few years ago, I was challenged by a teacher to make 100 New Year's resolutions for the next year, they don't have to be big or intense, but to do small things that make life more interesting. (Here's 2008 in case you were interested)

2009

  1. Buy the Lion King [X]
  2. Try out for the Amazing Race (not possible but it’s ok)
  3. Play cards with the family [X]
  4. Work with Acquire the Fire [X]
  5. Go on a spontaneous roadtrip [X]
  6. Go to a zoo. Anywhere (I went to an aquarium. It counts) [X]
  7. Play more Ultimate [X]
  8. Have an awesome message at Starlite [X]
  9. Go on Urban Outreach again [X]
  10. Watch the Hannah Montana Movie [X]
  11. Make a music video [X]
  12. Eat at Pancho’s at least 20 times [X]
  13. Go to Beach Week
  14. Go on a mission trip [X]
  15. Spend a quiet time with God at least 2x a week [X]
  16. Exercise often [X]
  17. Spend less time on the internet and TV [X]
  18. Watch the stars [X]
  19. Dance in the rain [X]
  20. Make dinner for people in my hall [X]
  21. Spend more time with my roommate [X]
  22. Strengthen new friendships [X]
  23. Maintain old relationships [X]
  24. Call extended family
  25. Go to a Chinese buffet all day
  26. Go on a scavenger hunt [X]
  27. Watch sunset and sunrise on the same day [X]
  28. Buy something off an infomercial
  29. Get a piñata [X]
  30. Buy something from a lemonade stand
  31. Make an unexpected friend [X]
  32. Order pizza with a ridiculous accent
  33. Learn how to street drum
  34. Learn to break dance
  35. Have a dance party [X]
  36. Do karoke [X]
  37. Learn to count to 10 in 10 different languages (I’m at 4)
  38. Hang out with homeless people [X]
  39. Go to a concert [X]
  40. Drink 100 oz. of water a day [X]
  41. Color in my coloring book [X]
  42. Write letters, not emails, but old school 42¢ letters [X]
  43. Go hiking [X]
  44. Fly a kite
  45. Read in my Spanish Bible [X]
  46. Make an art book! [X]
  47. Have a waffle night [X]
  48. Play board games with friends [X]
  49. Be more encouraging [X]
  50. Talk to Paul Conn [X]
  51. Apply for Deer Run [X]

The following were at Deer Run

  1. Create lasting relationships [XX]
  2. Catch a fish with my bare hands (heck yeah I did!) [X]
  3. Conquer fear of heights on ropes course (faced fear yes, conquered no)
  4. Go canoeing [X]
  5. Change lives [X]
  6. Grow as a leader [X]
  7. Grow in my relationship with God [X]
  8. Have an amazing summer! [XX]
  9. Go fishing [X]
  10. Stare at the stars all the time [X]
  11. Find the albino deer! [X]
  12. Pet a deer (next summer…)
  13. Blob somebody
  14. Play paintball! [X]


  1. Find a church in Cleveland [X]
  2. Get involved in said church
  3. Hang out with my brothers and sisters more from TSC [X]
  4. Have movie nights [X]
  5. Call more people [X]
  6. Eat more vegetables
  7. Spend less time on facebook
  8. Read a really great book [XX]
  9. Learn to play racquetball
  10. Go on more walks with Diamond [X]
  11. Get to know my neighbors (ehh not as well as I would have liked)
  12. Watch David Crowder in concert (*sigh* one day…)
  13. Write encouraging notes to girls on my hall [X]
  14. Finish reading through the Bible [X]
  15. Donate Blood [X]
  16. Break some rules [X]
  17. Climb to the top of a roof [X]
  18. Go cliff-jumping
  19. Stop procrastinating
  20. Go to bed at a decent hour (seeing as I’m doing this at 3 a.m.? fail.)
  21. Figure out what’s going down in life
  22. Complete counseling [X]
  23. Go on some more Jesus walks [X]
  24. Get good grades
  25. Spend a day in my PJs [X]
  26. Go to the public library and read in the Children’s section [X]
  27. Do a random act of kindness [X]
  28. Sleep in my hammock [X]
  29. Become a floor leader [X]
  30. Have a reunion with my imaginary friends [X]
  31. Have family time [X]
  32. Giggle [X]
  33. Become a Youtube sensation [X] (I think so!)
  34. Be awesome [X]
  35. Complete most of the items on this list (77 completed!) [X]

Broken (End of the Year Pondering)

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

"You Think" by Jenny and Tyler

‘cause what will the think of me

when they finally see

this little girl they know

doesn’t let her bruises show

it’s not what they think

it’s how You think of me

This semester has been one of the most ridiculous stages in my life. And when I say “ridiculous,” what I mean is “excruciatingly hard and challenging.” These past five months have been a journey, a journey into brokenness.

My life had been going fantastically, I had wrapped up three of the best months of my life at a summer camp, and was so excited for another year of college as great as the one before.

Then I had an old friend pass away. I hadn’t seen or talked to this person in a long time, we had grown apart throughout the years and became more like acquaintances, yet it was still a blow, one harder than I had expected as a young life is always harder to accept.

In a very short amount of time, I had experienced the deaths of more than ten loved ones. Over time, although I did not become completely hardened from the grief, I did become numb to the pain.

This semester was all about coming to terms with the pain, realizing it would never fully fade away, but learning how to deal with life in general. It was a wave of exhaustion as pain didn’t come in a small trickle but in a steady downpour.

Through it all, I did nothing but question God and ask Him why the pain was still coming.

We call God the potter and see ourselves as the clay, ready to be formed into a masterpiece. I always picture God sitting in a workshop, gently forming me into something great. But I always tend to forget that any good artist must first knead the clay so that it’s soft, beating it until I can finally be formed into something.

This season of my life has been about being beaten so that I can be ready to be formed.

I’ve hated absolutely every minute of this growing exercise God puts us through. Routinely, I’ve managed to call God a jerk for doing this to me without being struck by lightening.

But I’ve also learned a lot about accepting the brokenness, being tired to the point of exhaustion.

Like it’s okay to admit that I’m hurting.

The LORD gave another message to Jeremiah. He said, “Go down to the shop where clay pots and jars are made. I will speak to you while you are there.” So I did as he told me and found the potter working at his wheel. But the jar he was making did not turn out as he had hoped, so the potter squashed the jar into a lump of clay and started again. Then the LORD gave me this message: “O Israel, can I not do to you as this potter has done to his clay? As the clay is in the potter’s hand, so are you in my hand. Jeremiah 18:1-6

Oh Family!

Monday, December 21, 2009

Family, oh family
When we're together for too long
Things get interesting...

I can't really describe you to what's going down in our household
But this is almost an exact representation of my life

Dear Anna Ho,

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Happy Birthday!!

I can’t help but think back to when I first met you. I thought you were the strangest person in the world and that even though we would work together in Starlite, we would never really get along.

We are nothing alike.

Except that out of any relationship I’ve had with a person, our friendship has been the most God-destined relationship ever. Like when we actually got to know each other and talked about every detail of our lives under the shooting stars--that’s when I remember being so humbled by God to never judge a person again. And I still laugh when I found out that you thought the same thing about me—that I was the weirdest person ever and you would never be friends with me.

Boy did God prove us wrong.

We survived bomb threats together and became sidekicks.

We’ve watched the stars together, made tye-dye together, stayed up all night talking and watched sunsets and sunrises together (even though you secretly hated me for making you wake up for the sunrise).

You even accepted the fact that I have footie pajamas and had to yell the Circle of Life when I saw the sun come up.

You were the one who taught me to be vulnerable, even though the two of us suck at that, somehow you breached through all those walls. You learned about all the hurts and pains that I had learned to keep hidden and somehow you found them and helped me sort my thoughts. I feel like I’ve known you forever. Best friend isn’t really the title I would give you—it’s more like confidant, secret-keeper, or my dearest sister in Christ.

And now you’re leaving me.

And it’s something that just happens. I’ve learned that that’s how life works. We graduate from college. We get married. We have children and stand in awe of how cute they are.

But I’m really going to miss you.

You’ve helped me out with so much this past year, told me the truth even though it’s hurt both me and you, and listened to my worries and plans for life. We may grow apart throughout the years but I’ll always remember the great things that you’ve done for me simply by listening to me.

I love you Anna, you’ve made an incredible impact in my life.

Questions for God

Monday, December 14, 2009

When I can't sleep, this is what I think about:
  • Why do fish look so weird?
  • Do you have a favorite moment in history?
  • How many stars are there?
  • So, really, how many hairs do I have on my head?
  • Are unicorns for real?
  • What really happened to the dinosaurs?
  • What were you thinking when you made the platypus?
  • Do you have a favorite place that you've created?
  • Where's Waldo?
  • Are there aliens?
  • Before you created Eve, were there female animals?
  • What brings joy to you?
  • How do you fit the universe in your hands and still know everything about me?
  • When I get to heaven, can I fly?
  • Why did you make wasps?
  • Do animals go to heaven?

I Like This...

Friday, December 4, 2009

What If Jesus Meant All That Stuff?

This radical Christian's ministry for the poor, The Simple Way, has gotten him in some trouble with his fellow Evangelicals. We asked him to address those who don't believe.

By Shane Claiborne

[more from this author]

Shane Claiborne

The Simple Way

To all my nonbelieving, sort-of-believing, and used-to-be-believing friends: I feel like I should begin with a confession. I am sorry that so often the biggest obstacle to God has been Christians. Christians who have had so much to say with our mouths and so little to show with our lives. I am sorry that so often we have forgotten the Christ of our Christianity.

Forgive us. Forgive us for the embarrassing things we have done in the name of God.

The other night I headed into downtown Philly for a stroll with some friends from out of town. We walked down to Penn's Landing along the river, where there are street performers, artists, musicians. We passed a great magician who did some pretty sweet tricks like pour change out of his iPhone, and then there was a preacher. He wasn't quite as captivating as the magician. He stood on a box, yelling into a microphone, and beside him was a coffin with a fake dead body inside. He talked about how we are all going to die and go to hell if we don't know Jesus.

Some folks snickered. Some told him to shut the hell up. A couple of teenagers tried to steal the dead body in the coffin. All I could do was think to myself, I want to jump up on a box beside him and yell at the top of my lungs, "God is not a monster." Maybe next time I will.

The more I have read the Bible and studied the life of Jesus, the more I have become convinced that Christianity spreads best not through force but through fascination. But over the past few decades our Christianity, at least here in the United States, has become less and less fascinating. We have given the atheists less and less to disbelieve. And the sort of Christianity many of us have seen on TV and heard on the radio looks less and less like Jesus.

At one point Gandhi was asked if he was a Christian, and he said, essentially, "I sure love Jesus, but the Christians seem so unlike their Christ." A recent study showed that the top three perceptions of Christians in the U. S. among young non-Christians are that Christians are 1) antigay, 2) judgmental, and 3) hypocritical. So what we have here is a bit of an image crisis, and much of that reputation is well deserved. That's the ugly stuff. And that's why I begin by saying that I'm sorry.

Now for the good news.

I want to invite you to consider that maybe the televangelists and street preachers are wrong — and that God really is love. Maybe the fruits of the Spirit really are beautiful things like peace, patience, kindness, joy, love, goodness, and not the ugly things that have come to characterize religion, or politics, for that matter. (If there is anything I have learned from liberals and conservatives, it's that you can have great answers and still be mean... and that just as important as being right is being nice.)

The Bible that I read says that God did not send Jesus to condemn the world but to save it... it was because "God so loved the world." That is the God I know, and I long for others to know. I did not choose to devote my life to Jesus because I was scared to death of hell or because I wanted crowns in heaven... but because he is good. For those of you who are on a sincere spiritual journey, I hope that you do not reject Christ because of Christians. We have always been a messed-up bunch, and somehow God has survived the embarrassing things we do in His name. At the core of our "Gospel" is the message that Jesus came "not [for] the healthy... but the sick." And if you choose Jesus, may it not be simply because of a fear of hell or hope for mansions in heaven.

Don't get me wrong, I still believe in the afterlife, but too often all the church has done is promise the world that there is life after death and use it as a ticket to ignore the hells around us. I am convinced that the Christian Gospel has as much to do with this life as the next, and that the message of that Gospel is not just about going up when we die but about bringing God's Kingdom down. It was Jesus who taught us to pray that God's will be done "on earth as it is in heaven." On earth.

One of Jesus' most scandalous stories is the story of the Good Samaritan. As sentimental as we may have made it, the original story was about a man who gets beat up and left on the side of the road. A priest passes by. A Levite, the quintessential religious guy, also passes by on the other side (perhaps late for a meeting at church). And then comes the Samaritan... you can almost imagine a snicker in the Jewish crowd. Jews did not talk to Samaritans, or even walk through Samaria. But the Samaritan stops and takes care of the guy in the ditch and is lifted up as the hero of the story. I'm sure some of the listeners were ticked. According to the religious elite, Samaritans did not keep the right rules, and they did not have sound doctrine... but Jesus shows that true faith has to work itself out in a way that is Good News to the most bruised and broken person lying in the ditch.

It is so simple, but the pious forget this lesson constantly. God may indeed be evident in a priest, but God is just as likely to be at work through a Samaritan or a prostitute. In fact the Scripture is brimful of God using folks like a lying prostitute named Rahab, an adulterous king named David... at one point God even speaks to a guy named Balaam through his donkey. Some say God spoke to Balaam through his ass and has been speaking through asses ever since. So if God should choose to use us, then we should be grateful but not think too highly of ourselves. And if upon meeting someone we think God could never use, we should think again.

After all, Jesus says to the religious elite who looked down on everybody else: "The tax collectors and prostitutes are entering the Kingdom ahead of you." And we wonder what got him killed?

I have a friend in the UK who talks about "dirty theology" — that we have a God who is always using dirt to bring life and healing and redemption, a God who shows up in the most unlikely and scandalous ways. After all, the whole story begins with God reaching down from heaven, picking up some dirt, and breathing life into it. At one point, Jesus takes some mud, spits in it, and wipes it on a blind man's eyes to heal him. (The priests and producers of anointing oil were not happy that day.)

In fact, the entire story of Jesus is about a God who did not just want to stay "out there" but who moves into the neighborhood, a neighborhood where folks said, "Nothing good could come." It is this Jesus who was accused of being a glutton and drunkard and rabble-rouser for hanging out with all of society's rejects, and who died on the imperial cross of Rome reserved for bandits and failed messiahs. This is why the triumph over the cross was a triumph over everything ugly we do to ourselves and to others. It is the final promise that love wins.

It is this Jesus who was born in a stank manger in the middle of a genocide. That is the God that we are just as likely to find in the streets as in the sanctuary, who can redeem revolutionaries and tax collectors, the oppressed and the oppressors... a God who is saving some of us from the ghettos of poverty, and some of us from the ghettos of wealth.

In closing, to those who have closed the door on religion — I was recently asked by a non-Christian friend if I thought he was going to hell. I said, "I hope not. It will be hard to enjoy heaven without you." If those of us who believe in God do not believe God's grace is big enough to save the whole world... well, we should at least pray that it is.

Your brother,

Shane



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